~varjatka

Exactly, I wanted to write sth for a few days, but have no idea what to write. Feel awfully bad, to be honest… or sometimes feel needed - all the phone calls from my friends :”Siiri, can you explain me maths…Tomorrow morning, or whenever, pleeeease…” Yeah, but for what is understanding maths when I can not understand many other, simple matters…?

Promised to find time for everything and realized there isn’t any everything, exactly… Probably got lost in a moment… In school is better than expected, so maybe has even too much time to ask herself what, when and why… In a minute I’m taking Lotta for a walk.
I wish to have sth to believe in, something concrete, solid and stable or maybe someone to explain me all this madness…

Soundtrack

Brainstorm - “Thunder without rain”

It's like a thunder without rain
or like a week without sunday
or like a book without a last page
you want to buy you have to pay

a storm without pain
without any distruction
it's a good old game
million pleasures but no satisfaction
storm takes your desires
and all expectations
it would happen anyway
it's the only way to lose your frustration

it's like a thunder without rain
or like a week without sunday
or like a book without a last page
you want to buy you have to pay
and you can feel without a touch
and you can hear without speakers
of course you'll see without tv
and we will run without sneakers

red, red sky
and atlantes are swimming by
the same mistakes
different time and different place

it's like a thunder without rain
or like a week without sunday
or like a book without a last page
you want to buy you have to pay
and you can feel without a touch
and you can hear without speakers
of course you'll see without tv
and we will run without sneakers

one song is over another one left
the more you know, the more you know
you try to forget
heaven and earth
there will be no winner
as we all are saints
and we are, we are such sinners

it's like a thunder without rain
or like a week without sunday
or like a book without a last page
you want to buy you have to pay

and you can feel without a touch
and you will feel without speakers
of course you'll see without tv
and we will run without sneakers

The world was on fire
No one could save me but you.
Strange what desire will make foolish people do
I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you
And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you

No, I don't want to fall in love
This love is only gonna break your heart
No, I don't want to fall in love
This love is only gonna break your heart
With you
With you

What a wicked game you play
To make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do
To let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say
You never felt this way
What a wicked thing to do
To make me dream of you
And I don't wanna fall in love
This love is only gonna break your heart
And I don't want to fall in love
This love is only gonna break your heart

World was on fire
No one could save me but you
Strange what desire will make foolish people do
I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you
I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you

No I don't wanna fall in love
This love is only gonna break your heart
No I don't wanna fall in love
This love is only gonna break your heart
With you
With you

Nobody loves no one

.

1. First of all I'd like to thank all my friends who remembered about a birthday of mine and with whom I celebrated it last...hmmm...3 days Very, very nice moments...

2. I'm gonna spend a lot of time with Mailo. I met her during the trip and she's arriving to Kielce tomorrow morning The only one disadvantage is that must get up very early to collect her from the bust stop...

3. The date of the beginning of the school year is geting closer and closer every minute... I decided to take Polish, English, biology and maths on my finals. Most afraid of biology :/.

4. Know also that the school year will be a hard time, but decided not to give up hobbies and not to leave friends. Should have sth to live for Maybe it's possible to manage to do everything...

5. Still a bit afraid of listening to the whole new Poisonblack Probably would ask someone to do it and tell me about a general impression

6. Wrote about the shooting star, because I've got a wish...a dream or whatever... which sounds so impossible that only a shooting star... Nevermind.

7. Have got some new photos. Will publish but probably not earlier than Saturday

Well... That's probably all, the old and lonely lady would like to say for this moment... Or maybe would like to say more, but is not sure if it's only her imagination, insinuation accident and ill will... *sigh*


"What I do
and what I say
I do it all to be this way..."

Just waiting for a shooting star...

Well, quite a lot for 24h.

:

Surprise
Indifference
Runaway
Impatience
Pretending
Resignation
Anger
Sadness
Disbelief
Gratitude
Happiness
Emptiness
Impatience
Disappointment
Jealousy
Bitterness
Glumness
Calm
Silence.

"Should have seen it would be this way..."


The end.